Monday to Friday are the same. Get up around 6.45, have a coffee and a cigarette and get the train to work. Work till 5.30 pm, wondering what I am doing there and why I feel so detached and unmotivated. Sometimes have to fight falling asleep at my desk. Go home. Try and find reasons not to go straight to bed. Maybe watch a dvd, play the guitar, mindlessly surf the web, play a video game, go for a walk and smoke (I don't smoke at home) . Bed time can be anything from 8 pm to 2 am.
Saturday and Sunday. More of the same. Spend time wondering why I look forward to the weekend and then don't enjoy it. Possibly go to my writing workshop on Saturday afternoon (though I've stopped that for the moment).
Once in a while I go to a film (usually Asian or French - I'm an arty type) alone, or go catch a band (also alone).
I spend a lot of time alone, that's how I prefer things to be.
I spend too much time home alone and too much time on the computer playing scrabble or on the forums trying to connect with people I don't even know will show up... sometimes I don't leave the house for weeks at a time. I enjoy my time alone... but suspect it is somewhat counterproductive :/ Next week I go back to work so I will still spend most of my time at home but will have the company of a very bright 3 year old and an entertaining 1 year old. We will go to playgrounds and such but I will still be alone as far as adult company. Sometimes the kids are way more engaging than the adults in my life anyway. They are a bright beacon for me.... even with the diapers and tantrums...
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This week’s question may have a
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group and yourselves; put the guilt aside. Keep in mind we are all
growing and learning together now let’s just look without attachment.
This week’s question is:
How am I spending my time? What do I do, who am I with, where am I, etc.? What does a typical week look like?
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