My problem is, as long as I'm busy with work, kids etc., I tolerate the anxiety better. As soon as I slow down in the evening and try to relax, bam, that's when the panic hits. I feel tired from running full speed constantly trying to stay busy and then tired from the constant high level of tension that I hold in my body. I think it is just nearly impossible for me to be fully relaxed ever again lol. I've even had massages and still leave their knotted up. It's exhausting.