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Thank You all, Shevie, Chicken Stix, Penquin, Sunflower, Redrosie, Casey, Baba, and Lady. You are all very kind and thank you for your concern. I went and slept last night for 10 hours. I feel somewhat better today and I am not very confident of myself, my state of mind. One of the threads this morning is about accountability, is that not interesting and bit of serendipity. I know that the only accountability needs to be with me. And I am being tougher with myself than I have ever been. Today I am going to be very gentle with myself, now to all you tough love buddies I did not say unaccountable, I said gentle. I am going to take it really easy,have a really nice time. Nothing that will be to much and lots of TLC for myself. Rusty you are an inspiration. One thing that I have learned in this is that I am more firmly resolved to be smoke free, a non smoker, an ex smoker, one who does not smoke. And I am replacing that non smoker with a breather, a sensualist, I can not wait for the magnolias and the crocus and daffodil and all the other spring flowers are blooming because I know I will for sure be able to smell them. Thanks again for all your kindness last night. I will be back on my feet soon. As Lady says one foot in front of te other, Thanks Lady for the outstretched hand. Phillip :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 33 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 667 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $247.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 31 [B]Seconds:[/B] 44

80, 80 Aren't WE Greaty!!!!

Gooooooooooood Stuff. Redrosie you are a great and awesome quitter. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 33 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 668 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $247.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 32 [B]Seconds:[/B] 3

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And you Redrosie, The sun is out here and it will be warmer, it will be warmer. Oh I get so tired of wishful thinking. Thank you Redrose, you are a ray of sunshine. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 33 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 668 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $247.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 32 [B]Seconds:[/B] 33

Rd Man The Quit and all the Stories

Part of where I am today: [url=http://www.stopsmokingcenter.net/support/viewmessages.aspx?Forum=1&Topic=28119]UGH! Post Thread[/url] This is day 33. Todays Date: 3/22/2006 My Quit Date: 2/17/2006 Smoke-Free Days: 33 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 669 Amount Saved: $247.5 Life Gained: Days: 5 Hrs: 10 Mins: 53 Seconds: 18 I really am feeling very dizzy, and really like I am just going to sleep all day. Knowing that that is not possible. Finding out how I can be gentle with myself and find a different way to get through the day. The posts seem so relevant to me this morning. The mouth stuff, the dizzy stuff, the 30 day pit stuff, Rob47 stay strong. My mouth being a metallic, dry waste. I need to go and get the french bottled water it does not have the same taste as the stuff from the grocery store or cr**py tire. No blisters or sores inside and I think that if I drink lots of water and cut back on the acidic/caffine I will do well. There is one new thing. Swimming I am going to put off until tomorrow. That swimming thing is just to much and I really feel tired today. The sweating thing. Calling just as soon as I deliver this post, naking a DR appointment, I know that he will not be able to say anything other that this is a bit of nothing and I want his reassurance that this really is a bit of nothing,. That puts the sweating, fatigue, dizzyness into one more item dealt with. I know though that this is the place in the quit that is for me the hardest and it is the place that I have fallen the last two times. Both times 2000, and 2003 these symptoms came up and I caved. I can stand firm in my resolve and know that I can do different this time and I can know I won't cave. How do I know this, I have set this site up as a huge place for accountability, that's right, right here, right here in River City! That I can come here, post, post even the bad stuff and this group of dedicated quitters is right here with me, well it is just the absolute ideal of what group therapy is meant to be. AND the cost is my giving my word, my being honest, truthful and very open right here. So there are all those little chores all tidy all bunched up like so much laundry off to the cleaners, (if only it were so simple), and it really is that simple it is jus

HEY KNIGHTS WHERE ARE YOU?????

No smoking here in TO on day 33. Looking forward to that meter ticking faster! Looking forward to seeing who all is around. Thanks Knight Stix. Phillip :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 33 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 674 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $247.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 50 [B]Seconds:[/B] 29

"replacement" therapy

This thread was of interest. Thought others might share what they are using as replacement. I have: Swimming 4-5 days per week 1 or 1 1/2 hrs each Jelly beans Old fashioned hard ribbon christmas candy Posting here Journalling :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 32 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 650 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $240 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 7 [B]Seconds:[/B] 58

Rd Man The Quit and all the Stories

Todays Date: 3/21/2006 My Milage: My Quit Date: 2/17/2006 Smoke-Free Days: 32 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 648 Amount Saved: $240 Life Gained: Days: 5 Hrs: 6 Mins: 55 Seconds: 11 That date keeps on getting higher! The number of dollars increases! AND I feel terrible. I have felt terrible for a couple of days now. I had a very social weekend and did very well. Monday I had lots of stuff to do and I did hardly any of it. I don't think that it is so much that I crave the momentary rush the tobacco gave me. What I crave is how the tobaccoo had my mind totally altered every second of the day. As part of feeling terrible, I am dizzy, my mouth tastes metallic and my body feels feverish, I burst into a sweat at a seconds notice. My addict brain says that if I smoked this would go away. My rational brain says this is just how you are feeling and the smoking would mask all of this and you most likely would feel even less. I know that my breathing is better and yet I feel congested, it just so happens that it is clear sunny and cold out for those of you in the south cold is minus 5 celsius, I walk the dog three times a day and I respond to that. The metallic taste is another thing and eveny my jelly beans or the hard candy I eat are not tasting so great. I know this to will pass. When, I don't know, and it will pass. I know that I won't smoke. I know that I will absolutely stay in my power and I will be in control. I know that if I give over to some other force, wishing, hoping, praying, I will be giving up on myself and I will no longer have full control. Right now I need to stay in complete control of what I do, how I behave. Knowing all the while that I can not control what my body does or does not do, i.e. all the weird symptoms. I know they are symptoms of withdrawl or not pumping the nicotine into me, and going to the doctor will happen. I know though that this time I will not need to go through the barrage of tests to find out I am dizzy. So if it works for me to take a nap I will and if it works to drink a gallon of water a quart of orange juice I will. I simply will not smoke because I know exactly how that DOES NOT work for me. Right now it works to come here post and read. I know that it sounds like whinning and I know that I need a pla

Look At Me, 71 And More Beautiful Than Ever!!

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Ugh! I just feel ugh! So tired and so moody. This is worse than anything so far at the beginning anything in making the choice to quit. I really don't like the space I am in. I don't think I will smoke and I know that I am very emotional. No reward seems to strike any kind of spark and the thought of smoking is messing with my head. I know that I would be heart broken if I did smoke and I don't want to go through the first stuff again. BLAAAAAAGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH! :( So I will post here. Take a hot vath and put my head under the blankets and wait for tomorrow. UUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHGHHHHHHGGHGHGGH! :( [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 32 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 655 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $240 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 9 [B]Seconds:[/B] 10

New Member

Trudy Welcome I am the king of long posts many of them whinney. Glad to hear that you have made it to here. Shevie has great info: read a lot here, post often. I will add drink lost of water and get plenty of exercise. I look forward to hearing about how you are doing, it helps me through. Stay strong, hooray for you being a non smoker and there can be a tonne of power in that mixture of terrified and excited! Welcome Trudy, noce to meet you. Phillip [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 32 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 654 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $240 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 57 [B]Seconds:[/B] 59