the new kid-fighting her way out
alright so im not going to go into detail about how and why my panic disorder/agrophobia started.
i will start by saying hey, im charlee:)
over the last two years i have suffered from panic attacks and anxiety attacks. in the last few months i
have started to take control. it started with small steps like taking my dog for short walks, then one night
i just felt like going out somewhere after not going out for a few months. i went to my moms for the first
time in just over a year then went to my dads girlfriends house. it was the biggest step id made at the time.
last week i went to see a therapist for the first time regarding this thing. she taught me box breathing and some
other relaxation methods as well as some ways to counter act my anxious thoughts.
the details surrounding my disorder are no longer relevant to me. if i had of found this web site six months ago
it would be a different story, i would want to talk about the tragedies in my life. but now, with all the progress
made i cant talk about whats in the past anymore, what ive lived through. i have spent the last three months
removing those images and memories from my brain and have no intention on revisiting them any time soon.
im not sure if this is wrong or not, it feels right to me but my mom seems to think i will cope better if i talk.
not happening. this thing has eaten me alive for two years. i havnt gone out with my friends in two years.
im over it, or trying to be. im fighting it tooth and nail. i became an aunt two days ago, im going to go see
my nephew for the first time this saturday. im also going to see twilight in theatres (i won tickets).
so thats me, in a very tiny nut shell. i will not let this thing control me anymore. ive got a life to live.
